and I'll never be whole again

What have I done?
With my heart on the floor
I must be out of my mind
To come back begging for more
But if you stay
If you just stay for the night
Swear that I'm yours
And I'll prove that I'm right

And these flies kept me sleeping
All my fears on their wings
And your grandfather clock is still ticking
But the chime never rings
And how long must I stay?
Will I lay by your side
Just to say that I'm yours
And you'll never be mine

Sorry

Sorry I'm not Perfect
Sorry I don't give a damn
Sorry I'm not a Diva
Sorry I just know what I want.
Sorry I'm not a Virgin,
Sorry I'm not a Slut
I won't let you break me
Think what you want.

Letting go.

No matter how much I try, I can never let go.

I can never let go of the past, the past that haunted me, and bruised me for life.

You've hurt me. For good.

And I don't think I can ever forgive you.

its me.

Somehow, forgiveness is always a hard thing to do.
Once a lie breaks a heart, theres always that barrier that elevates back.
Sometimes, hatred takes over, but love always overcomes.
But that doesn't mean I'm fully yours.
You can go, and I won't cry.
Cause the pain that was once there has bruised me too deeply.

I wonder when you are ever going to have a heart warming talk with me.
Telling me your feelings and emotions.
Until that day, I will never fully go back to you.
I promise.

anxiety.

Anxiety. Is all i have in my heart.
The reason for you being here is for me..is it not?
The Difference in you brings out fear. I wanna runaway.
Im so scared. I don't know what's in my heart.
I love you. I know you want a another chance.
But I'm so afraid. I dunno what to do.
So hurt. So cut. So deeply.
I feel like I'm bleeding. Constantly, with my heart pounding.
Being with you is a risk.
My smile is fake.
Your eyes just tell me lies.