dangerous. how someone can read me.

Right now, you feel at ease because you have company
whereas before this
you had a slight feeling of doubt in you
and you had many worries which you pushed to the back of your head
and your forcing yourself to focus on what you're reading
your heart feels confused but you're trying your hardest to regulate it
and set your priorities straight only because you miss your family so very much
and you're compansating for the way you miss them by proving to them that you can do very well
you kinda feel like you wanna cry
but you can't right now
cause you're feeling very relaxed
very calm, very collected
you've given yourself a plight of relief by releasing your tension
but you're worried that in a few hours
you're going to go back to feeling not 100%